what a way to spend...
your Saturday night.
i'm filling out my divorce paperwork. i want this shit over with already. we've been "technically" separated now since June 20, 2004. (to be more accurate....its been since like....oh....1999, when we really ceased to be lovers, partners & more......shall we say, roommates.....co-habitants, if you will....) its high time.
i've put it off....not because i didn't want the damn thing. but because its so god damned depressing. and its fucking outrageous of a fee. $350.00. it's funny....it was only $45.00 to get hitched in the first place. and only 1 piece of paperwork. now i'm up to my earlobes in FL-110's & 982's.
it just really drains you. looking at your whole life you amassed with this person....being brought down to just a few scraps of paper........just a blowin' in the wind.....
and you really have to admit failure. not 100%....but enough to make you feel like complete & total shit. that you couldn't make something work. that you couldn't either make that person see what needed to be done or that you couldn't ultimately change who you were.
maybe we were never meant to be together. maybe we weren't the perfect match. i know i got something wonderful out of the whole experience. 4 amazingly talented, adorable, funny, quirky kids.
jake, claudie, lea & jake
halloween '05
halloween '05
it saddens me to see them trivialized on a piece of paper. but its ok. i'll make it through. they'll make it through. we'll all come out better in the end.
i breathe a sigh of relief and know tomorrow is going to be a better day.....
posted by jeni at 11:15 PM
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