Volcanic Sacrifices: the dusting

of the foreheads.

yes, folks....its ash Wednesday. the lenten season is upon us. translation = today i starve...along with good friday, for the next 40 days i get to feel like crap about shit i've done, fish will be a mainstay in my diet & and its easter egg dying season!

you've got to admit....catholics got some weird traditions. now, i won't knock my religion. hell no. my mom raised me better than that. but when lent season comes along....i know how catholic mothers can get so good at that catholic guilt thing.

so, i've been wondering. what am i guilty about this lent? and what am i prepared to give up?

today is my penance day. i need to admit to something horrible & feel like shit for it....all day. and then carry that guilt for 40 days. 40 looooooooong days. and to add insult to injury, you've also got to give up something. i don't know what i'm going to lose this year. i've been racking my brain for weeks now. but no circumventing the admission thing....

i'm guilty for a lot of shit. a lot. i'll be the first to admit....i'm no angel. i'm in no way near perfect. (make note of this....for while i'm admitting it now...i'm not likely to during a non-lent season...) but i've got to atone for something that's really bad. or something that has caused me to overly dwell on or fester about. hmmmmmmmm.......

ok, i think i've got it. more about this one later on....

now what do i want to give up? i don't have any vices anymore. well, ones that aren't illegal or bad for you. ok....totally bad for you. i cuss up a storm....but i don't think i'll be giving this one up. i like it too fucking much. (oooh...my bad....i don't ordinarily cuss on here, do i?) but i'm kinda stuck. i could give up fatty foods, sweets, soda, manicures, pedicures, eating out, frivolous shopping, yelling at the kids (um....no....that one stays...), there is always my gaming, my obsession with shoes, my weekly VS sprees?

well, what are some suggestions from the peanut gallery? anyone, anyone?